Wowzers.

Fine, "wowzers" isn't appropriate English, but it expresses what I feel today.

Time flies: "Tired of lying in the sunshine, getting home to watch the rain, you are young and life is long, and there is time to kill today, and then one day you find, ten years have got behind you, no one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun..." Floyd puts it into words that aren't always meaningful, but when I think of time, this song begrudgingly enters my thoughts.

Anyhow, it HAS flown, Jennie and I are less than two weeks away from our wedding, and plans have ebbed and flowed, I'm just trying to be a supportive, grateful fiance. I think, in part, I've had some success.

J, continues to support and love me as if I was somehow deserving of such treatment. I'm overwhelmed by her all of the time. She brings the best of me forward, and gives me so much purpose and hope.

She still works at Primary Children's Hospital, and she is the best Medical Aide in the PICU. The way she speaks of the children and their families always helps me forget about myself. She is so thoughtful and loving towards those who are in such difficult situations and feels their pain.
She is the truest person I know.

Things with myself are un-changing. I just kind of roll with the punches as always.
I'm hoping to start doing photography on the side. We'll see how it goes.


So, things are going well, the 6th of December we will be married at the Lion House.

So,

I should be closing on a condo in the next week, hopefully.
I'm filled with a sense of urgency and excitement.
Maybe I can start growing up, but just a smidge.
The condo is located close to my grandparents house, and
it is a quiet blessing. I didn't plan it out this way, but I'm
glad I can keep a watchful eye on them; plus, a free hot dog
now and then never hurt either.

This is just a speck on my horizon; however, as it is gratefully just the
first step in a series of much bigger, more important steps.
I can't wait for Jen to move in, and we can start our life together.
I sometimes hear the sound of children's laughter in my sub-conscience,
and feel so blessed that I will have the opportunity to be a father and a husband.
I hope I can be a portion of the husband/father my dad is.

I'm blessed abundantly for the parents I have, indeed, my entire family
and extended family are a grand blessing.
They have always loved and supported me through my
"deepening trials" and my numerous successes.

I love you all.
D

Crazy.

Sometimes one wonders: What is God thinking?

During those dark, bitter trials I tend to feel so abandonded, so alone. It's selfish, I know. Especially when we can see the end of the tunnel; the bright light of understanding floods our senses and we realize what God is doing. He is shaping us, He is building us into beings which will one day be worthy to be in His presence.
How grateful I am for these "tough... tutoring trial(s)."

His answers to my prayers are much more meaningful than anything I could have come up with.

Puzzles and epiphanies.

D

J

Today I woke up with a pit of emptiness, and torture in my stomach.
I immediately thought of you.
You are constantly on my mind; your well-being, your happiness,
your joy.

Your smile and your hope inspire.

I am feeling better today, I have made some necessary adjustments, and talked to a very intelligent, helpful Doctor. Things will continue to improve.

I don't know what I can say about you, J.
You have changed my life in so many ways.
Your altruistic nature is completely moving.
I can't imagine the amount of rewards waiting for you in heaven.

I love you, J.
With all the Love I possess. Thank you.

D

P.S. your pictures are beautiful and do not fully captivate
who, and what you are. You are my sunshine, love.

Someone very close to me

mentioned they would like me to keep a journal. "It's important."
Well, maybe this will be my feeble attempt.
Maybe it's going to be for myself.
Maybe my posterity will appreciate it; that is, if Al Gore
doesn't invent something to replace his "internet" idea.
D